I've been battling an internal struggle for some time now and within this past year I've finally been making progress in coming to terms with myself. My struggle is that ever since high school I've been into bondage and BDSM. When my parents found out about this interest they tried to steer me away from it. I always found a way back and every time my parents caught me again I got in more trouble. I've been constantly hiding this side from everyone, because my parents and society as a whole look at bondage and BDSM with a disgusted look.
I'm now in college, and away from my parents. I'm free to delve into this community and explore what I really like about bondage and BDSM. Like I said earlier, this past year I discovered what I was interested in. I loved puppy play. I found that I loved being someone different than who I am and pleasing someone else. Unfortunately I'm still struggling coming to terms with this and haven't told anyone in my "vanilla" life. Since finding a Mistress to serve as her puppy I've become more comfortable with myself, but not enough to confront my parents about it.
I've been slowly realizing that this is who I am and no one can change that. I don't want to change and bury this side of me because I enjoy it. Stepping up to one's parents is a daunting task and requires a lot of courage. I hope one day I can confront them about this.
Right now I am still exploring and learning about myself. I'm very happy that I found someone to share my love of puppy play and as I get deeper into this life I'll get more comfortable talking about it with others.
Everyone has some sort of secret or internal struggle they are battling. Mine is my secret life with puppy play and my love of bondage and BDSM. I love the art and the way people can express different things through bondage.
Thank you for reading.